Sunday, August 26, 2007
denial.
it is my way of preserving faith and hope. Silence and passivity may look the same as obliviousness, apathy and indifference, but may not be the same at all. We can feel and care intensely, yet remain silent.
silence is the key to suppression, my anodyne.
.shan. [10:08 AM]
Friday, August 24, 2007
yesterday i had a nightmare.
ok not really, more like a grossmare (is there such a thing?) i dreamt that i took out my tongue stud (which is silver) to change or show it to someone and it was SO DIRTY! it had things stuck to it and it even had algae growing on it! OH MY.
well i could almost see your faces of disgust. besides deriving joy from gross-ing people out, i also know that none of you would be my potential lover. so.. ya lah, i will change my stud before i go back. -grumbles-
i am more often appalled than angry or upset. and when i am so, i play dead.
.shan. [6:21 PM]
Monday, August 13, 2007
this is kahlen rondot. i know she's been introduced to me before but i have NO IDEA how cute she was till i happened to catch her on ANTM cycle 4 last episode. oh my! her dimples killed me totally! (her figure, needless to say *sighs*)
say hi to my new girl :)
.shan. [12:31 AM]
Friday, August 10, 2007
i say your name over and again in my head. and if i could reach you, there's nowhere else i'd rather be. respira mi niña, respira otra vez. habla conmigo. me gustaría escucharle otra vez. digame está bien, por favor. necesito saber.
.shan. [12:01 AM]
Saturday, August 04, 2007
ok, the deal is sealed. Didi has officially passed on yesterday. the fact that music is my life has brought in a new player. It's name shall be Dumdum, and it's green in colour. you can take a peek at it at
www.samsung.com.au/promotions. well i got it at a considerably reasonable price of AUD $114 for 2GB. now i can have my life back on track and move on :)
.shan. [4:27 PM]
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
people, the past two week had been miserable. i consider it a blessing to be able to switch on my mp3 at the start of my day. yes, i reckon Didi (the name of my mp3, just thought off the top my head) has been diagnosed with a terminal illness. it's been so temperamental and weak. at times i could take up to 20 mins just trying to get it to wake up. i've had it for more than a year, i think. i just don't know what to do anymore, and i'm just not sure how long i can hold on to it. this is really frustrating.
should i get a new mp3 player here or should i just wait for Didi to pass on? please tell me what to do.
.shan. [7:31 PM]
