ok it's winter now, i think. the weather really has an impact on me - i can't seem to wake up anymore! it's like when the alarm clock rings, my hand reaches over to snooze it, my head turns half a pillow, and i open my eyes wide enough to re-set the time. woala, task accomplished! it's so cold, and i don't wanna get outta bed! i don't wanna do anything but sleep! totally understand how and why animals hibernate during winter.
it is also at this time of the year everything seems so depressing. i mean i do criminology, and seriously, it can be really dark. tell me about it when all you learn over these few years is how fucked up the criminal justice system is, and how the world is on its way to self-destruction. it's like you can see things, and you understand why they turn out like they did yet you can do nothing but watch the events unfold themselves right before you. what's worse is that you can't find one solution or don't even know where to begin because you just don't know.
i always thought that equality is ideal for the world. wouldn't it be nice if we could all be the same? well it's never gonna happen cos we are born different. even if we're of the same status, it's in Mankind to be greedy for power & control; there would always be someone fighting be the leader at the expense of others. communism didn't work, as if democracy did. what a world we live in.
screw it, i'm gonna curl up with my 'retard' pillow & forget the world for as long as i can.