the spring cleaning season is imposed on me. god it sucks constantly breathing in the dust. but it feels great to throw away stuff though. some stuff. it surprises me how things that used to mean so much to you could devaluate to such unworthiness over time. is it just me or is it that there is a fixed period of existence for everything in this world? i dare not speak of eternity because i know nothing of it.

time passes so fast that you change without realising. but you leave traces of your past; we forget till it catches up with us someday. i read up my journals and diaries i wrote when i was younger. my english in primary was atrocious! not that i have improved tremendously since then but seriously, ATROCIOUS! this is something i wrote in my P4 journal titled My Sister:

I have two sister but i am going to talk about is my biggest sister. Nowadays she always nag, and if she nag, she will have alot words to talk. She will make you do alot of things at a time. She her ownself did not do anything.
Once i go to her room, she will nag again. She will said: "Please knock the door before you come in!" I know she is doing something secret. Sometime i come in she covered her things and don't let me see. She is alway very little work to do, so she always do rubbish.
I don't know why this would happen to her, even my second sister says that also. Maybe she left her bestfriend in st.nicholas girls' school.


goodness! i nearly died of disgust and laughter when i read this. oh my, i totally have no right to laugh at my former housemate's english since i was once this bad! i bet my english teacher must have vomitted gallons of blood reading my journals for the whole year. you see, that's one of the main reasons why i don't aspire to be a teacher.

then as i grew older, my english kinda stabilized. hah but i was hell of a problem teenager (well who wasn't?). many many crushes, some which i don't even remember well enough what i did with them. they just sorta come and go, and i grew out of it. actually come to think of it, i was rather fickle-minded and i get tired of people easily. maybe i did change, and perhaps not after all. like what aimee said: let's be nothing, i heard it lasts forever.