Thursday, December 14, 2006
i'm glad to be back for some reasons. i'm delighted to see some familiar faces yet i dread to see others who used to be part of my life. i'm tired of trying to fit into places where i don't belong, and maybe that's why people say that as one grows older, the social life becomes smaller. you get tired of being cheated of your feelings over and over again; of trying so hard to please those whom you don't even matter to. i don't like walking in the dark and i have been for far too long yet the light seems threatening with its brightness. i just want to feel comfortable; i just want to be me. how is it possible to love like i haven't been hurt before?
.shan. [4:06 AM]