it's been so long. in drunk stupor i cried those tears i held back. i hate it. i hate to remember. i hate to cry, i hate to feel. i yearn for simplicity yet i can't accept it; cos i am not. i expect a lot, i want it all or nothing. bask me in your passion or forget me for eternity. life is unpredictable in a way that you would never know what you are capable of till you do it. i have come this far, i will not let it go to waste. my pride, my confidence, you will not take away all these. again.
i beg you not to rise from the dead. i pledge my love for you in an everlasting passion. take my hand, my heart, for all i have to offer. take me to your grave, bring me with you. but you didn't. i lived, i breathed painstakingly. every breathe i take i bleed. it never stops, the ache stays. i miss the scent of your skin, the taste of your lips, the tender moments we had. no, nothing's ever going to be the same. go away, just go.