k this is going to go extremely angsty & random:
i met a lot of pple lately, and i think i fancy 1 of them. i dunno what that means and i dunno what to do. i'm too afraid to move but i dun wanna stay either. fuck this shit. everyone came back to melb with a broken heart, i could see thru those sad eyes. i wish there was sth i could do to help them.
fuck relationships. i hate the gay world. i'm so straight in the gay world and so gay in the straight world. it's so competitive, it's so comparative. i juz don't feel like stepping in at all; i wanna stand outside and juz remain outside but i feel gravitated to it. now i realise that L word has some truth to its portrayal and i'm so fucking turned off by that. everyone's slping or has slpt with everyone else. so damn complicated.
i can't stand emotional sensitive guys. i can't stand my housemate, i dun even feel like going home. i feel like i've done nth right ever since i've gotten here, what the fuck is wrong with me? i wish there could be someone that i can trust and rely on, i'm all lost.