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Thursday, May 04, 2006

i can't evade from this living nightmare.
it has become a vicious cycle that repeats itself everyday.
i dread waking up
but then again i haven't been able to slp.
my mind disobeys my will,
my malfunction heart isn't strong enough to keep me alive.

no matter how hard i try to push things away,
to pretend nth happened;
how many times i scream for help,
no one can hear my cries;
no one can save me.
the clock continues to tick in rhythm
n the bleeding juz doesn't stop.

i have lost it.
i can't stop hating myself,
all the more forgive myself.
everyday i look into the mirror i c the hideous scars
n i'm reminded of it.
another grave mistake,
another haunting trauma.

i loathe living in this pain tt nv seems to cease
persistent ach that paralyzes me
memories that i wish to erase.
i want an end to this suffering,
but i juz dunno how.
.shan. [10:16 PM]









++ || Shan || ++

WARNING
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certain amount of truth,
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## in-sight of me ##
?compassionate
?meticulous
?herbivore
?non-conformist
?neat freak
?ambidextrous
?random
?introvert