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Friday, March 31, 2006

i don't know y i feel so hollow now. isn't that what i wanted? i dunno if u've read my email though. did i really said that i was leaving for sure? i can't be sure.. but that's what i really wanted to tell u. i juz hope u get e right msg. ain't i suppose to feel happy that i finally tasted your blood on my sword? perhaps i won e battle but lost the war. y am i grieving for a part of me that shld have been lost? were u ever part of me?


i stared down at my hands;
stained w ur blood.
before i realised,
my tears were washing them away.
my concrete heart shattered.
i knelt over your body
n pulled ur limp body into a tight embrace.
chokes of grievance escaped my throat
as i felt your body grew colder each second.
what shall i do now?
how should e story end?

i lived & breathed you.
now that your gone,
what purpose am i to live on for?
everybody dies.
i picked up e stained sword;
with my two hands,
i plunged it into me.

is this really what death feels like?
flashes of happy moments we shared.
i fell right onto you;
till the very last moment,
i adored your beautiful face.

this is the end of our story.
may we re-unite in paradise;
just the two of us.
.shan. [10:36 PM]









++ || Shan || ++

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## in-sight of me ##
?compassionate
?meticulous
?herbivore
?non-conformist
?neat freak
?ambidextrous
?random
?introvert