Friday, October 28, 2005
being with you is like living under a totalitarian rule
where my rights r forfeited
where my words fall upon deaf ear
when they're nt in tune w urs.
n where all my revolutions r suppressed by ur army
i'm loathe of u
but yet i love u
i wanna pls u in everyway i can
n i am trying hard
but u juz seem so insatiable
which makes me feel incompetent
i feel tired trying to reach out for u
and not being able to no matter how hard i try
u feed on my weaknesses
gt me wrapped arnd ur fingers
driving me up the walls
my heart nv knew such agony
i know that soon it would nt b able to take it.
but i'm afraid to let go
i dun deny that u love me
but how serious r u abt it?
i am grateful that u have stood by me all these times
but deep down inside
my wound is still open
blood still flowing
juz tt i hid it frm u
u assumed things were alrite
while i secretly rebelled inside
yet i fear to flee
n i won't b'cos i dun wanna c u fall.
but this internal struggle
i dunno how long i can take it.
.shan. [1:35 AM]