Saturday, September 03, 2005
well, if u've been in a relationship, u'd probably feel tt dis song is so true. i feel like dedicating it to u but i know tt u'll b hurt & i dun think u'd question wat went wrong. i wanna let go yet i can't & i dunno wat am i holding onto. yes, u said u care most abt me & u love me. sorry, but maybe i dun get e way ur expressing it, so u failed to convince me. i dun think i demand very much of u & i dun know how long i can hold on anymore. it kills us both each time we quarrel, but each time i quarrel i realise tt i know u more & i learnt how to deal w things, & also i noticed tt e more significantly different we r. maybe it would have been better if i din love u so much or i dunno u any better, i'd probably b happier. great love comes w great pain & there can b no joy w/o suffering. really? smtimes i think tt even if we suffer so much we dun get to enjoy... i nv knew such heartache till i met u. smtimes when i look back i was thinking if i had nt been so rash, i wouldn't end up in sucha pathetic plight. but 1 thing gd is tt watever tt's happening betw us sure highlighted my weaknesses & tt gave me chances to deal w it. i dunno wat to think or do anymore b'cos i'm so afraid of making more mistakes & my heart may nt b able to tk e blow, it may juz die. maybe tt's when i dun hold onto u anymore.. 'cos ur only almost here or nv here all e time. i dun think i'll lose out much..
.shan. [5:30 PM]