Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Things have certainly changed. i think my heart is closing up already. too many disappointments tt shattered almost all the hopes. i'm juz waiting u know, till the day i can't tk it anymore. i think i'll juz walk away. i'm sorry, i shld've known. shld've, would've, could've, if only. no man.. can't turn back e hands of time. i knew u were such a person, i saw myself step into dis deep shit right b4 my eyes & i can't do nth abt it. i deserve it, i juz dunno wat to think now. maybe i dun even know how to face u anymore. i dun even think i know u or understand u no more. my heart can't tk too much of a rollercoaster; i hate rollercoaster rides 'cos u'll nv expect when's e nxt dip. it makes me sick in e stomach. y am i putting myself thru dis? i wanna leave yet my heart won't allow me to. i hate it when i go soft, y shld i care so much anyway when u dun even care abt urself? we belong to different worlds, i dun even know y we're tog or how we can possibly love each other. things r juz nt e same anymore.. after all those quarrels, all this time, my heart is hardly pumping anymore.
listen to my heart.
it's a dying pulse.
.shan. [8:12 PM]