Sunday, September 11, 2005
sitting at my dresser, looking ahead at my reflection.
who r u? wat r u doing?
i hardly recognize myself anymore
so tired, sapped.
i weep; i weep for my broken soul.
obligated to show my love for u
is smthg i am nt strong enough to fight against.
so i dry my tears,
put on my make-up, thicker than before;
to mask my face juz to make u happy.
turning my back on my reflection,
i wear a smile -
ready for the nxt show.
i look ahead as ur eyes burn into mine.
sorry, i can't.
i can't let u c the weaknesses inside of me.
i juz can't let u tk anymore of me away from me.
.shan. [11:57 PM]