Saturday, September 10, 2005
pause.
i dunno wat's going thru my mind,
afraid to know or maybe afraid to admit.
i dun wanna know how i feel
afraid to learn tt i can't change e way i feel.
so wat am i to do nw?
my heart worn & stretched so thin,
can't hardly tk any more blows;
can't afford to.
i'm this close to hating u.
i wanna shut u out,
but i can't.
i loathe my soft heart- so fragile.
shld i tk e plunge & fall to death?
or wait for salvation?
gt no time to spare
'cos e fire is catching up on me.
can't breathe;
i'm choking to death
.shan. [10:13 PM]