Wednesday, September 14, 2005
omg.. juz gt thru another sucky day. can anyone tell me how to boost ur confidence? i juz dun bloody have it.. e more i try to do smthg rite e more i screw it up. makes me feel like a complete idiot failure! i'm so uptight & tensed, feel like i can't do nth rite and won't b able to & i can't let it go w/o harping. tortured day & night by my failures, can't i get smthg rite in my life at least? oh god.. i so wanna throw away my brains so that i can't even think, so that i dun even know tt i'm failing in life.
i wanna love myself more, i wanna have confidence & faith. but how?
.shan. [3:35 AM]