Monday, September 26, 2005
dear, i dunno wat to say. it's so pretty damn obvious tt ur taking me for granted. y r u nt cherishing tt lil time we have tog everyday? u tell me tt nth else matters but me? tell me how can i believe it when u push me to e bottom of ur 'to-do' list? i'm nt being sensitive.. i've de-sensitized so much tt i dunno whether i shld even bother to care abt u anymore since u dun seem to appreciate it. i dun even c wat's e pt in talking when we can't even carry a proper conversation w/o having to wait ages for ur reply or u getting distracted. & i have to wait patiently on e other side? e wait juz dampens my mood, my enthusiasm, my love. dis is sthg so basic tt my frens can do tt & u, my lover, can't? tt is e utmost disappointment.. how can i nt feel neglected & invisible? & wat's e pt of telling u wat's wrong when u won't accept it? i'm human too, i run out of patience too. can u juz realise wat r u doing?
i love u
but i dun have ur love
how are we to carry on?
.shan. [4:02 AM]